Surviving to the best of my ability

DAMMIT I'm good

2008-06-23T15:51:00.000-07:00

Ok.....I'M HOME!!!!!! Afetr a long three weeks at FT. Bragg North Carolina I am finally home. I left on the 3rd of june and we flew down there and after a full day of traveling I was sooooooo sore because despite the fact that I had the surgery on my back to fix the problem I did something and the problem didn't get fixed...just worse. So we got down there and went to check in to our highly crappy WWII baracks. ( found out the majority of them have asbestos in them so they are tearing them down and building new ones because the parents of soldiers returning from Iraq pitched a fit when they found out their heros were staying in filth). The high temperature was about 105 degrees the first day there and they say we do this training to prepare us for deployment to Iraq and I guess the weather definitly had us prepared. LOL. So after a few days of intense heat and boredome we heards that our vehicles were NOT getting shipped down there like it is supposed to ALL the time. So as the NCOes were discussing how to put together a convoy at the last minute I was trying to let them know that our vehiclesa would not make it on a drive down to North Carolina for a 14 hour drive...but they had no choice because we had to get our vehicles there. So they got a handful of inexperienced drivers and issued them licenses to drive there. They all made it safely and at the end of a long trip we ended up with 3 downed vehicles which me and my mechanics had to fix out in the middle of the woods. NOw just to let you all know I am an e-4 a specialist for the Army and usually somebody who runs a motorpool is an E-6 or above which is like a staff sergeant or higher. Basically they are the supervisors who know ALOT about vehicles and how to fix them...I am a worker and know just alittle bit....they put me in charge. So we get out to the field and I have to start finding parts to fix these vehicles and I have no clue where to even start. Thank God for my leadership because not only do I have to find parts I am in charge of about 10 people. Who ,by the way are the same rank as me or one step below and they also have a hard time listening to someone who is on their level. So I had to be a bitch to them on the first day just to let them know I wasn't gonna play ANY games with them. It all was good though because despite the fact that I am the only female in maintenance they have ALOTof respect for me because Not only was I their boss for 2 weeks I was still working with them and they helped me out ALOT. So in the end the vehicles got fixed after alot of ass kissing to alot of different people. So being a water unit we got a good spot right on a lake and at the close of business everyday we got the opportunity to go swimming..which was a great incentive in the 100 degree heat. Towards the end of our mission I had went back on post with my supply sergeant and we went to get a generator for a 5 ton truck and she got a call from our 1st sergeant and he said the sergeant major of our battalion wanted me back out in the field to talk to me.CRAP!!!! I was so nervous and scared and my mind was going crazy trying to figure out what I had done wrong. So I went back out and got to work squaring away my soldiers and someone started yelling " VIP in area" my heart dropped and I started to walk towards my 1st sergeant and he told me to come with him and we went to talk to the SGM....Long story short I got a coin (which is an honor from the SGM) and he said that I did an excellent job running maintenance and he wanted to recognize that and he gave me a coin! After that I went poop!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....He was a very nice guy and a very respectable man. All in all I got alot of help learning how to be in a leadership position and I have ALOT of respect for my leadership. So when it was all finally done I wanted to just go home and see my husband and kids and then I found out I had to ride a bus home. I can deal with that I guess..whatever gets me home as long as I get home. So I figured I would take some muscle relaxers to knock me out for thew entire ride and that didn't work out as well as I thought it would so at 11pm I took 2 vicodin and got comfortable(or tried to). I still couldnt sleep so at 1am I took 2 more. hmmmmmmmmm.....that almost worked too well. I was feeling REALLY good after that and fell right asleep. HEEHEE. So we stopped somewhere in Ohio at 6am and I was still really drugged up and fell off the bus! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. The bus driver was the nly one who saw me and asked if I was ok in mid laughter. I made the dumb"I'm embarrassed" laugh and got up and as I was walking inside the rest stop I was walking in zig zags. HAHA. So after a short stop we proceeded back home and finally got there about 11am and I set foot in my house at about 12:45pm. So my look at it was I had a great experience and I now know alittle better how to be a leader to my troops. We also had alot of fun when we weren't stressed out. So I am home now and getting settled back into my civilian life. This has been a long entry and I hope you all enjoyed it .

God Bless and Much Love.

Sorry

2008-05-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

Ok so I've been slackin...I haven't posted anything since february. Alot has happened since then. Things were going so good I got caught up on all my bills me and my husband both had income and then all of a sudden it all chenged in a heartbeat. Ok so I got a phone call from some person asking if my husband name is Rudy and I said yes and she started asking me all kinds of weird quetions and finally I was like who is this and why are you asking me all these personal questions. She said she was from a collection agency and she was gonna add an old electric bill of his to my current bill which in turn would run my bill way up. So, Unaware that I have not been recieving a bill for my electric, cuz I've been so busy with work and the Army, I recieve a phone call saying that I gotta pay $742 and some odd cents to avoid a shut off. NO SHUT OFF BILL IN THE MAIL!!! so I argue with the customer service for about a half hour and basically it boiled down to the fact tht it was my faulkt that I did not get a shut off nothice in the mail. So I set up a payment plan. NOTHING IN THE MAIL!!!!!! So I call to let them know I am not getting mail from them and they say there is nothing they can do about it. JEEERRRKKKSSSS!!!! so on may 7 they came and shut my electric of with no warning. Is that legal with kids in the house? Obviously it is, but they don't care either way. So now I am in the process of asking the salvation army for help and I pray to GOD they do or I am screwed. I am also waiting on this government stimulus money we are suposedly getting but with my luck I won't get crap. So I am dealing with life as usual here in GR. things will get better eventually I never give up faith or hope. The good news is I finally got my back surgery to fix the herniated disc that was causing me so much pain the last few months. The doctor said I was really strong during the surgery and would make a good recovery. I got some good drugs to kill the pain too. Except I think my body is getting immune to the pain pills cuz the effect is gone so I stopped for a while I can deal with the pain.
My sister had her baby FINALLY!! we couldn't wait fopr that to happen cuz she was complaining too much..(heehee love you Libby). But I have a beautiful new niece and she is perfect! My step sister called me from Washinton state and announced she is getting married! YEA MEL!!! I just hope I can see her soon and meet this wonderful man of hers. UMMMMMMMMMM.....what else? I got offered an great opportunity with the Army but a few issues fell through but I still am working alot for them which means good money for this month and June. All I know is that my bills will get paid cuz I can't take this stress anymore. Well I guess thats al for now if I think of anything new I will let you all know. Hopefully I can post a blog for once and not bitch about life. Maybe some good news for once. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! YEA RIGHT NOT FOR ME!!

Everybody have a blessed day! Much Love.

Kirsten

Today

2008-02-03T12:34:00.001-08:00

I found this video on myspace and it is hilarious!! Why can't all terrorists be this dumb and funny? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist

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Finally.......

2008-01-23T12:31:00.000-08:00

Ok I am FINALLY adding a new post. After recovering from the long holiday i am back in the grind and making some money. I finally got my bankruptcy filed and now I can get full checks from work again. I also finally called to make an appointment to take the entrance test to see if I am smart enough to start school in March. My only weakness is math. Of course. I just blindly filed my taxes online and the fact that I am getting a large amount back kind of scares me but God willing it will be fine and in 10 to 15 days I will actually have money in the bank. I have a V.I.P I really want to pay off so I can stop disappointing him. Everybody pray for me and my tax return.(HEEHEE) I know I will be cuz God knows I need it REALLY bad! Anyway I have been missing my daughter alot!I really want to spend some time with her but its hard. On the other hand little miss attitude that lives with me FINALLY got her monthly visitor!She kept whining and complaining that she wanted it sooooo bad and when she finally got it she acted like she was gonna DIE! She threw up once and downed alot of ibuprofen. HAHA Destiny NOW your a WOMAN! Her Dad on the other hand wants NOTHING to do with it he couldn't even handle us talking about it. HAHA Rudy she is finally a WOMAN!! And so the dilemma begins at age 12 1/2. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! Anyway it seems as though things are finally looking up for us again,although Rudy hasn't been called back to work yet he is getting unemployment and I don't have to do this by myself like I thought, so thats a small plus. Well I guess I had more to get out then I thought but I am FINALLY done so everybody have a beautiful day.

A Great Day...

2007-12-23T09:15:00.000-08:00

Well after my ranting about rude and horrible people I went on saturday and picked up my daughter. That made the weekend look a whole lot brighter. Today we are enjoying the day as a family. Briana and Destiny are inseperable while they are together and we all three get to go shopping later for christmas presents. Destiny won $50 at school from a fund raiser and she is DYING to spend the money. Christmas is going to be good this year regardless of how many presents the kids get. I think they are happy to be with the ones they love for a few days. I know I am happy Briana is here because I don't get to see her that much anymore. I have to make appointments just to spend a weekend with her. Anyway Life isn't so bad when you take a step back and notice the little things that make your life so complete and make you so happy even if it is for a few days. Everybody have a Blessed Christmas and a very happy new year.

Whatever happened to holiday spirit?

2007-12-21T09:00:00.001-08:00

What happened to people just being flat out nice during the holidays? Whatever happened to treat others as you want to be treated? What happened to family life where a mother could spend time with her kids without losing wages from work? I have no answers for this and I'm sure not many other people do either. Listening to the radio this morning and WGRD Free Beer and Hot wings went out to 3 or 4 different families today and broke into their houses to leave presents and furniture and food and just plain make a good holiday for a few families who are less than fortunate this year. They made an interesting comment about how many nominations they had for this "holiday break in" and they were actually shocked that people with children live in small homes with no space and the kids sleep on mattresses on the floor with no sheets or pillow cases, and the fact that people are just flat out broke.Kudos to the Free Beer and Hot Wings show to showing the love when nobody else does!I read
an article in the paper about the veterans benefits and they said donations were up this year but the founders and big whigs were geting paid six digits a year, in the meantime 1 penny for every dollar was going to our vets who served in wars since vietnam!!!! It seems the closer we get to the end of the year the more stories I hear about people losing houses and jobs going everywhere but here. While we sit here true to our country and most of us very proud of what we have accomplished as a country but yet the people who are supposed to keep us safe AT HOMME IN AMERICA are leaving us broke and hungry. I know people who used to be extremely successful are now struggling to make ends meet. I am tired of this place and I can't believe how horrible most of us are living. I told Rudy today that I am so sick of working for NOTHING! I work to pay bills and yet my bills don't seem to get paid. For the most part they do but it's hard when they get your check before you do. It seems bankruptcy is the only way I can get money. If it was up to God we wouldn't even have to pay for anything! Thats another thing,why are churches who are "strong in the community" refuse to help people who attend church on a regular basis unless they have proof they pay their tithes and offerings. What about WWJD? I guess the fact that without God this country would not exist but yet the major politicians will not let God into the courthouses and law period. Anyway as we get closer to Christmas we need to remember the real reason we are celebrating and wish Jesus a Happy Birthday on Christmas day. Maybe at least one day out of the year people can stop being so selfish. Everybody have a beautiful day!

Can I be strong willed enough......

2007-12-18T11:14:00.000-08:00

Well per my sisters and husbands request I have contacted schools to study criminal justice. I don't want to be a cop but I wouldn't mind being a probation officer or juvenile probation officer or something like that. Can I be strong willed enough to actually finish this. My patience tends to get the best of me at times. Maybe I am finally tired enough of my life that I realize I need to do something with it besides settling for less than acceptable. My husband works hard why can't I? I made it through basic training I can do this. I just hope I can get financial aid or I'm screwed. But the school does have scholarships for military and I got my G.I. bill. So lets all hope and pray that I can do this and finish. I will need the support of my family and when I am down and ready to give up I will need encouragement alot of it. If I do decide to go to this school I will let people know when I do. Wish me luck. Everybody have a beautiful day!!

2007-12-16T18:48:00.000-08:00

HOLY CRAP COULD IT BE I AM SMARTER THAN MY SISTERS?!!!!

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Just when I thought it was gonna get better........

2007-12-16T18:22:00.000-08:00

Why is it when I think I'm about to get ahead something shows up in the mail and sets me back again. I am so sick of life. I will just continue to take this crap day by day and hope for better. I'm not really down on myself right now I just am surprised by how no matter what time of year it is people just don't care about anybody but themselves. ( I went to the mall today) People are rude, nasty, ugly, and just flat out horrible and I have lost all faith in mankind all together. I wish I could just get up on a pedestal and tell all the jerks to F@&! OFF!

Ok I got an example. I went to the tobacco store to get more tobacco and there was a sign on the door that said "Be back in 10 minutes" so I figured ok no problem I got time I'll wait. About a minute later this FATASS old lady walked up to the door and started to complain right away. She did notice that I was there first but apparently didn't care. She then started to bang on the store window. Not just knocking but Banging. Finally after about 2 minutes the lady inside opened the door and apologized for using the bathroom. Then this rude woman proceeds up to the counter because apparently she is the ONLY one waiting to get something. So tell me why if she was so impatient to get in the store as soon as she got to the counter she took her SWEET TIME! I was standing behind her about to explode. And even though this eems like a long time the whole thing took about 5 minutes. So finally after her 5 minutes at the counter she left and I got my tobacco and went to the car where Michael was waiting patiently(HAHA). I started to back out and noticed a car coming so I stopped and the car pulled into a spot two cars over, as I turned artound to check the other side before I backed up again this B!TCH pulls out and almost hits me. Thats it I lost it. I rolled down my window and started to cuss her out and she put her arms up like what?!!! This woman was like 70. I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!!! I love my family though. Now that I have vented I hope you all enjoy my story. Have a beautiful day!

Today

2007-12-13T10:15:00.000-08:00

Well I suppose I will add another piece of mind today. I talked to Libby last night and I told her I wanted to go back to school for SOMETHING!!! I am starting to get bored with everyday life. I think I could try some kind of social work but have NO idea where to start. I searched GRCC and all I got was criminal justice which kinda sounds appealing also. Not to be a cop but something along those lines. In other words I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up! HEEHEE. I know I don't wanna be this for the rest of my life. Rudy wants me to go back to school while working part time and he will earn the big money, he loves his job. I also REALLY want to have a career in the Army but I gotta be in shape for that and my motivation is zero. I suppose a few excercises a day won't kill me. But then again a career in the reserves isn't bad either, 20 years is not a long time. I love the Army and don't want to get out. It's nice to know I have a sense of family when I am not with family. Anyway, I am sure I will decide sooner or later (hopefully sooner) what I will do but in the sense of past experiences I will not let anyone know till I am done because it seems like when I tell everybody I am trying to do something I fail or give up. My impatience always gets the better of me. I seem to expect things to happen overnight even though I know better. I also feel like I cannot grow up. I know I am 32 years old but I wanna be 13 again. If I could turn back time I would have finished school like my parents wanted me to and went on to college. I would never have gave up Briana and still met Rudy but I should be finacially set and have a house by now. Although no thanks to our fearless country leader I would have probably lost the house and ended up in an apartment anyway. However I have come along way from where I was 10 years ago. I can pay my rent and most bills without the help of my parents now. My husband has helped that in alot of ways because he is way too proud to ask people for money. Ok I looks a though I am about to write a book so I will end this now. Everybody have a beautiful day.

The Holidays are here

2007-11-30T11:56:00.000-08:00

Ok, Well its almost christmas and another year of "OMG am I gonna have enough money to get my kids presents?" I hate this time of year. It's that time where you can't go anywhere without getting stuck behind that ONE driver who has ALL day to get where they are going or in front of the person who thinks they own the road and if you don't move out of thier way they will continue to sit on your rear bumper even though you are already going 5 over the speed limit. And of course good ole snow has returned to town so people brains are going to freeze right along with it. PEOPLE CANNOT DRIVE!!!!!! I wish we could all take an IQ test or a common sense quiz before allowing ourselves to conceive a child because it seems as if the dumb ones are multiplying. Anyway tomorrow is my Company Christmas party and the kids are so excited they cannot get off my nerves. I am proud of myself though, I got donations from a few places and was able to get 35 gifts for the children. They are good ones too, not the typical cheap plastic gifts you have to pretend to like, in fact I did so well I am afraid I might get stuck with this every year. That's my sense of responsibility I guess. Ok I'm getting bored with this already so evrybody have a good day!

Just another day

2007-11-19T12:44:00.000-08:00

Well I noticed that my sisters had made their own blogsspots so I guess I had to. Anyway...I guess this is just another day back to the grind. On a positive note I did finally turn in my bankrupcy papers and I can finally get full checks from work. I have been getting garnished for a while for that crap car I had in 2000. I wish I could just tell the bank to go F themselves and they know what they can do with MY money. And by the way If you know anybody looking for a new car DO NOT go to bestbuy used cars they are the ones who screwed me but not as good as the bank. anyway I guess thats all I gotta get ready for work and go be nice to all the genuises of grand raggedy.